Article about Host #4
It walked in this vicious circle sufficiently for long. It is sufficient for the fact that to
understand that host's life without it loves does not represent on the present.
And here is paradox. It changed, or its life changed, it is not important. But it became
such, such as it considered it had to be pleased finally by it as the husband, and for
those several encounters, in it began to note that he wanted to see in host's own wife. -
Lord, well why this injustice, did think he, why we did not wait a little or were not
encountered to the pair of years more lately? " Why!!! " - an age long question of
humanity.
Host attempted to change everything in the house. But as to known demolish always it
is easier than to build, and some things in this life not at all yield to restoration. And
everything was, it seemed, on its side - both (host and hostess) were lonely, both, as to
it they it seemed still loved each other, but from one thought about the return of family
relations with it threw into the trembling. What to that by fault? Inertia in thinking?
Apparently it had time to exhaust that limit of confidence, which the women give men,
and it is sufficiently great. But he now accurately knew that it must be either with it or
not to be generally. The latter was not arranged it.
Luxurious, attractive, attracting thought - to begin everything first. But not all can be
begun anew. And not always. Is it is not enough that cannot " twice to enter into one it
is tighter than “reku”" , it is just as far it left from this river, that to the return to " “ney”"
time will not be sufficient, life will not be sufficient. Fate is such. Is it possible to conquer,
to deceive fate? It decided to try.
Host knows his habits, its preferences know that it loves, which hates, he knows about it everything! And moreover, it such itself, such as it waits, it searches for. He knows this woman better than someone on the earth. So really it will not be able to attain the love of this woman, even, also, in other tele-?! And will not have it fear before it, before its past errors. This thought is alien to it long ago, but it was decided to it far from immediately. There was in it something… incorrect that? You as if steal this future love in someone. But it gradually calmed itself by the fact that this someone it and there is and if it works someone, then only itself. Man generally can be convinced of what conveniently if in the depth of soul it and itself in this believes. But here still it and itself passionately desired this faith.
And when everything was tested, when to go was already nowhere, it arrived into the
underground host's clinic. It much heard about them, there is much interesting, there is
much bad, but never earlier it thought to become host's client. Earlier to it was that lose.
Now it was not.
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